It seams as though the busier I get the more "Mom guilt" I accumulate. I get so wrapped up in my check list and never ending things to do that when I lay down at night I am overwhelmed with this anxiety of whether or not I gave my girls enough of me that day. Did I snap at them too much because they were acting out for attention? Did I put my obligations before them? I pray about this every night, balance, contentedness and always PEACE. Am I doing a good job? I juggle way too much, do my girls see this and feel my stress? I sometimes can't sleep at night worrying about my job as a mom. It is a huge task being a parent. There is so much to give, to teach...and on and on. And then God gave me a little gift.
I have been digging a little deeper in my Faith and trying to get back to where I was when I felt closest to God. The more effort I put in to Him the more moments like this I am experiencing.
I was putting Liv to bed one night and saying our prayers like we always do...(She usually prays for toys, or to go to Disneyland...) But not this time. She starts off with what she is thankful for...Mommy, Daddy, my wonderful family, a roof over our head, yummy food my Mommy makes, keeping us all healthy... She is recognizing her blessings and thanking God for them. My heart was melting. She continues on to pray for people struggling and for God to be with them and bring them happiness. Through Liv's sweet little prayer he was showing me that I am doing a good job. A sweet little gift to keep me on my path.
I just wanted to share :)
Have a beautiful day!